Posting & What Nots

I came home from school in a bad mood.

Slammed the front door shut.

Dumped my hideous school bag on the floor.

Ate my lunch in silenced.

It was 3 something when I had my lunch.

Went for 3 separate club meetings. Chinese/English society & choir. 

I didn't get the post I wanted for in Chinese society. 

It was a kinda flashback moment for me when the teacher announced I was only gonna "upgrade" to the senior secretary post. Reminded me of the time when I was still serving as a prefect and I wasn't elected to hold any post when all my other friends did. The reason was because I was incompetent. It was horrible. I felt horrible. 

What made everything worse was the fact that.. That girl got the pengerusi post. She too "upgraded" from last year's assistant pengerusi. 

It wasn't by vote that she got the post but by teacher's choice. If not I would've won. 

Worked hard for 4 years for that society and what do I get in return. A job I swore I wouldn't ever do in my whole life. Last year, I said to myself if I was to get secretary post again, I would quit the society. But I don't think I can now. FML. 

I told my mom. I told her I regretted being her dog, follower & shadow for so long. No one will notice me with her around. I should've join some other clubs when I had the chance. Get away from her. Ugh.. 

Mom said I was stupid. I was forced to agree.

Am gonna be extra active this year.

Joining JU, school magazine team. English department. :)

Heading prom too, me. It's a big headache now though. People aren't listening to me, they're talking. & I'm worried about the funds. Ahhh whatever..

xoxo