10 Days Countdown Starts..

Now. 

Piano exam coming up this 31st July. Am unnerved by it.

Haven't achieved perfection yet. 

Still mistakes repeated over and over.

Practice?

Bah! It's not helping now at this point. 

I've got a feeling I'll fail. 

xoxo

Making Myself Feel Better

I'm having a rather weird/crazy week.

Funny thoughts keep popping up in my head.

Feel especially vulnerable now.

Insecurity haunts me.

I feel worthless and unsatisfied with myself.

Could use a little motivation now.

My brain's constantly putting me down.

Gonna explode soon.

Might sleep early tonight.

#JustAnotherDay

xoxo

Hot & Cold

I'm finally feeling like I fit in.

Then I don't.

I'm finally feeling like I understand you guys better. 

Then I don't.

I'm finally feeling I can communicate better now.

Then I don't.

It's this hot and cold feeling that I hate.

I always have this feeling that I'm a step away from getting close to you. Just one step. Somehow that last step always seems so hard. 

When I'm brave enough to move forward, all things start going backwards. It's like a mistake I never knew I made. 

3 steps forward 1 step back? 

Nahhh... It feels more like 3 steps forward 4 steps back.

Sometimes I get so frustrated I just give up trying. 

No more trying to be like them. No more trying to fit in. No more pretentiousness. Just be yourself.

But I don't like to be alone. Nobody does.

The "outstanding" one. The "different" kid. 

I wanna be a somebody not a nobody. 

But not all things go my way. 

Life. As it is. 

#StayingPositive 

xoxo